Dear Jordan – Letter #1
May 4, 2016
Today was a good day, wasn’t it? Sure when the alarm went off at 6:30am you hit snooze (more than once) but you did, in fact, wake up today…another day. It’s been hard waking up though, I know. There have been days in the not-so-distant-past where you weren’t sure if tomorrow was worth waking up for. So I want you to know I am proud of you for waking up another day.
Oh, and you made it to the gym. Third day in a row! Which I know has to be some kind of record for you considering you haven’t worked out in over a year…disappointing I know, but we all have to start somewhere. And don’t be discouraged that running on the treadmill isn’t easy on the post-baby-bladder. I hear it gets better, but I wouldn’t know yet. I could hear you tell yourself to push harder today though. And I could see in your eyes the deep desire to rekindle the fire you once had when you were younger. Soon enough you will find your beast mode so don’t give up!
Did I mention how well you are doing with work? Sure it’s only one client but your words are encouraging and they are blessing more people than you know. Whether you have one client or a thousand, your work matters. And you show up every day. Thank you for showing up. I don’t want to keep reminding you how hard it has been to always show up day to day, but you’re finally doing it. You may not know why or if it’s worth it, but it is. It really is.
I didn’t want to bring it up, but balancing the bar stool on top of your husband’s floor drum just so you could reach the top of bushes with the shears was NOT a good idea! You get in this mode where you see something needs done, even those things that nobody else cares about (like overgrown bushes!) and you do whatever deems necessary until you accomplish your goal. I know you think things like that are funny and make life a little adventurous, but your husband was not impressed with your acrobatic skills. Maybe it’s time to invest in a latter? I hear they are kind of expensive so….maybe not? Either way, the bushes look great just so you know.
Don’t be too upset about get frustrating with the girls during bath time. In all reality they were being just plain whiny! But, you gathered yourself and knew you had a job to finish and you did. And before I forget, you did a great job with dinner. Those sandwiches tasted amazing, and who doesn’t love fresh watermelon?
As the night came to a close it was such a sweet moment you had with the girls as you prepared to tuck them in for the night. I wanted you to know you were seen in that moment. And, I know it’s not always easy to finish the day strong when all you want to do is sink into the couch simply exhausted from the day. But each day you make it a point to ensure that your girls know they are loved, and prayer time at night is no different. I loved the word you received from your Father. He sees your three daughters much like a three-strand cord which is uneasily broken. How reassuring in these days filled with chaos.
Your work seems endless and most days there is still a list a mile long with things that did not get done. Of course always making you wonder if you are really trying hard enough, and if you should be doing more. But today was a good day. Stop guessing if you are enough for your family, because today you proved once again you were made for this. I look forward to tomorrow. Now go get some sleep. (I know you binge watched Fixer Upper for a whole week so seriously, get some sleep!)
All my love,