Dear Jordan – Letter #2
May 6, 2016
Oh how the struggle is real. I know you are tired, and it doesn’t matter how much sleep you get you never feel rested. Everyday you look forward to “nap time” in hopes to catch a little sleep yourself. But there is always this nagging feeling in the back of your head that you should be doing something more worth your time. That’s exactly what happened today, wasn’t it? You tucked the girls in, turned out the lights, grabbed a quick snack and smiled as your head hit your pillow….that lasted a whole ten minutes before you couldn’t stand it any longer. There are things to be done!
I just want to remind you that it’s okay to rest. And it’s okay to work. No matter what people say there is no balance, because each day is different and each one requiring something different from you. And I know you wonder if there is more than work, more than cleaning, more than taking care of your family, more than being exhausted – but I cannot tell you more confidently there is not more. Not right now anyways. Right now this is your “more” and this is your calling.
I know you think “that’s it, huh?” And yes, that’s it. It’s great though really in the grand scheme of things. Each and every day you have the opportunity to serve, love unconditionally, make disciples, work hard and rest when able. What more could you possibly do right now to fulfill the calling placed on your life?
Sure you would jump on a plane in the blink of an eye to explore the world to fulfill that deep imprinted desire to see, and serve, and love the world God created….but then wouldn’t you miss so much of those opportunities in your own life? Always remember those times will come. You are sure of it. So don’t lose sight of what you are doing right now while wishing for something that is not meant for this period of time- – but it will be in your future. And that you can very much look forward to.
Yesterday you knew it wasn’t a great day in particular, but it was filled with small moments throughout that made those particular instances special. When Jaiden curled up on the couch with you with an upset tummy you knew there wasn’t much you could do. None the less you allowed her to lay behind you while you worked and in that moment that’s all she needed. To feel close to you (and maybe steal some of your snack!), but it was still a moment of love shared in her time of need. Thank you for being available. And above all else I hope you see that there is nothing more you could be doing right now than being present in these daily moments within your own life.
All my love,